Yes friends... I am home. Back in Malaysia for my 2nd round of data collection. And the typical routine when i am home is to catch up with the pampering sessions... massage, facial, scrubbing and all.
Dalam banyak-banyak facial service yang aku dah pernah pergi, facial dengan orang C*** paling best sekali. Aku ni jenis cerewet sikit bab2 facial ni sebab muka aku ni sensitif. So,kalau silap guna product or terlebih massage, mudah la muka ni jadi merah. Atau kalau terlebih tekan bila extraction, merah tu ambik 3-4 hari jugak nak hilang. Agaknya memang nature orang C*** yang pandai business, service diaorang selalunya tip top, professional dan bilik facial tu pun bersih (towel, katil, wangi-wangi...aku sukaaaa!).
Balik kali ni, aku try nak ambik package kat Mayfair sebab tertarik dengan banner and testimoni diaorang kat program Impian Anggun TV3. Mulanya memang nak teruskan dengan service Dermalogica kat SACC, tapi bila takde parking hari tu... aku terus aje drive ke seksyen 7, dan walk in ke Mayfair. Service yang diaorang offer (based on condition muka aku)- 5 kali facial guna medijet dengan harga RM5000. Terbeliak mata aku dengar, ingat aku ni tuan puteri, keturunan raja, duit berkoyan ke nak gi facial RM1000 untuk setiap treatment.
Aku rasa muka aku takde la macam bontot kuali, sampai nak kena facial harga macam tu... agak insulting jugak bila beautician tu sungguh2x cakap muka aku rough, banyak acne scars, uneven skin tone... bla..bla..bla. Ye la, what do you expect, hidup aku memang sangat stress untuk 1-2 tahun yang lepas. Tido ikut suka aku aje dan selalunya terlebih tido sebab aku stress. Makan ... apa aje yang tekak aku teringin,, aku telan. Exercise- hmmm, harapkan jalan pergi balik ke sekolah aje laaa.
Skincare- aku pakai yang basic aje, itu pun kadang2x terus tido tanpa cuci muka. Memang laaa... aku pun dapat rasa kan, beza sungguh masa zaman aku kerja fulltime dulu.
Aku end up ambik jugak facial service diaorang... harga yang rendah daripada apa yang diaorang offer tu, of course service yang lain. Sebab beautician dah pujuk2, and aku pun memang in need of a facial and pampering, aku sign up la untuk facial course dengan harga yang mampu bayar (HSBC interest free). Bonusnya -in return aku dapat beli trial facial yang harga RM1000 tu dengan harga RM50. Bila dah siap, so-so aje laaa aku rasa..... tak worth langsung pun RM1000.. dan aku heran, boleh pulak dia offer kat aku dengan harga RM50 aje... hmmmm, business... business... facial yang RM200 tu aku rasa lagi best dan nampak results.
Apa kaitannya dengan wudhu'? Hari yang sama aku tengok kat TV astro- pasal wudhu'- syarat2x sah dan cara2x... siap dengan ayat quran dan hadis pasal wudhu dan kebaikan dan hikmahnya. MasyaAllah- banyak sungguh hikmahnya, didunia dan akhirat.. dan pada aku, itulah natural facial. Tak perlu mask, scrubbing, machine, medijet dsb...
[tapi kadang-kadang kita pergi facial sebab nak pampering] - and i reserve my comments on that one.
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Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w yang bermaksud:
"Sesungguhnya umatku kelak akan dipanggil di hari kiamat dalam keadaan putih cemerlang kerana kesan daripada air wudu".
Rasulullah saw bersabda :
“Dari Abu Hurairah berkata: telah bersabda Rasulullah saw: Apabila seseorang hamba muslim atau mukmin berwuduk maka setelah ia membasuh wajahnya, keluarlah dari wajahnya segala dosa yang telah dilihat oleh kedua matanya melalui air atau bersama titisan air yang terakhir. Ketika membasuh kedua tangannya keluarlah dari kedua tangannya bersama air atau titisan air yang terakhir. Sewaktu ia membasuh kakinya setiap dosa yang dilangkah oleh kedua kakinya bersama air atau bersama air terakhir sehinggalah setelah ia selesai berwuduk ia bersih dari dosa-dosanya. (hadis riwayat muslim)”
Selain daripada itu, antara fadhilat lain wuduk ialah mengangkat darjat manusia.
Diriwayatkan daripada Abu Hurairah radhiyallahu ‘anhu:
“Sesungguhnya Rasulullah saw telah bersabda: Sukakah kamu semua sekiranya aku tunjukkan kepada kalian akan amalan yang dapat menghapuskan kesalahan-kesalahan dan mengangkat beberapa darjat kalian? Mereka menjawab: Ya, wahai Rasulullah. Maka Baginda saw pun bersabda: Iaitu (antaranya) menyempurnakan wudhu walaupun dalam keadaan yang tidak disenangi (seperti kesejukan dan sebagainya) (Hadis riwayat Muslim)”
Seterusnya, wudhu dapat memberi cahaya di akhirat.
”Sesungguhnya umatku dipanggil pada Hari Kiamat dalam keadaan bercahaya wajah-wajah, tangan-tangan & kaki-kaki mereka kerana bekas wudhu (Riwayat Bukhori & Muslim)”
Pernahkah kita dengar bahawa wudhu dapat membuka ikatan syaitan? Ya, Rasulullah ada bersabda bahawa ikatan syaitan pada manusia akan terlerai dengan wudhu.
“Dari Abu Hurairah, beliau meriwayatkan dari Rasulullah saw, bahawa syaitan mengikut manusia ketika tidur di malam hari, dengan tiga ikatan. Kemudian Rasulullah saw memberitahu cara untuk merungkai ikatan tersebut, dalam sabda Baginda saw: Sekiranya dia (manusia) bangun (dari tidurnya), dan mengingati Allah, bebaslah satu ikatan. Sekiranya dia berwudhu pula, bebaslah satu ikatan lagi, dan sekiranya dia bersolat, bebaslah satu ikatan lagi. Maka dia akan menjadi segar dan baik dirinya. Sekiranya dia tidak melakukannya (berzikir, wudhu, dan bersolat), maka dia akan menjadi buruk dan pemalas. (hadis riwayat. al-Bukhari)”
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Nikmat kesihatan
Semalam saya mendapat perkhabaran dari beberapa sahabat setelah sekian lama tidak berhubung.
Sahabat A sedang mengidap penyakit paru-paru yang kronik. Walaupun telah menjalani satu pembedahan, paru-parunya masih lagi tidak lagi mampu berfungsi secara normal, dan kini beliau memerlukan bantuan pernafasan dengan tong oksigen. Akibatnya, kini hidupnya bergantung pada tong oksigen mobile yang perlu sentiasa dibawa bersamanya dan khabarnya tong oksigen itu berharga RM18,000. Rawatan masih diperlukan, dan minggu depan beliau akan sekali lagi menjalani pembedahan di HUKM. Dia yang dulu cergas, lasak dan aktif bersukan futsal, kini perlu menghadkan aktivitinya.
Sahabat B pula akan menjalani pembedahan kerana ketumbuhan dibahagian rahim. Beliau telah berkahwin dan mempunyai seorang anak.
Sahabat C pula mempunyai ketumbuhan berhampiran dengan buah dadanya. Alhamdulillah, setelah pemeriksaan rapi dijalankan - ia adalah ketumbuhan biasa dan bukannya kanser.
Sesungguhnya kesihatan itu adalah nikmat Allah yang tidak ternilai. Mudah-mudahan kita terus dikurniakan Allah dengan nikmat kesihatan ini.... ameen ya rabbal alamin.
Sahabat A sedang mengidap penyakit paru-paru yang kronik. Walaupun telah menjalani satu pembedahan, paru-parunya masih lagi tidak lagi mampu berfungsi secara normal, dan kini beliau memerlukan bantuan pernafasan dengan tong oksigen. Akibatnya, kini hidupnya bergantung pada tong oksigen mobile yang perlu sentiasa dibawa bersamanya dan khabarnya tong oksigen itu berharga RM18,000. Rawatan masih diperlukan, dan minggu depan beliau akan sekali lagi menjalani pembedahan di HUKM. Dia yang dulu cergas, lasak dan aktif bersukan futsal, kini perlu menghadkan aktivitinya.
Sahabat B pula akan menjalani pembedahan kerana ketumbuhan dibahagian rahim. Beliau telah berkahwin dan mempunyai seorang anak.
Sahabat C pula mempunyai ketumbuhan berhampiran dengan buah dadanya. Alhamdulillah, setelah pemeriksaan rapi dijalankan - ia adalah ketumbuhan biasa dan bukannya kanser.
Sesungguhnya kesihatan itu adalah nikmat Allah yang tidak ternilai. Mudah-mudahan kita terus dikurniakan Allah dengan nikmat kesihatan ini.... ameen ya rabbal alamin.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Are you on time?
Again, found this from the internet somewhere. Worth reading! (and pondering). Thanks to the author.
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There were only 15 minutes left before Salat-ul Isha.
He quickly made Wudhu and performed Salat-ul Maghrib.
While making Tasbih, he again remembered his grandmother and was embarrassed by how he had prayed.His grandmother prayed with such tranquillity and peace.
He began making Dua and went down to make Sajdah and stayed like that for a while.
He had been at work all day and was tired, so tired.
He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting.
He was sweating profusely.
He looked around.
It was very crowded.
Every direction he looked in was filled with people.
Some stood frozen looking around, some were running left and right and some were on their knees with their heads in their hands just waiting.
Pure fear and apprehension filled him as he realized where he was.
His heart was about to burst.
It was the Day of Judgment.
When he was alive, he had heard many things about the questioning on theDay of Judgment, but that seemed so long ago.
Could this be something his mind made up?
No, the wait and the fear were so great that he could not have imaginedthis.
The interrogation was still going on.
He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name hadbeen called.
No one could answer him.
All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two and madea passageway for him.
Two angels grabbed his arms and led him forward.
He walked with unknowing eyes through the crowd.
The angels brought him to the centre and left him there.
His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of hiseyes like a movie.
He opened his eyes but saw only another world.
The people were all helping others.
He saw his father running from one lecture to the other, spending hiswealth in the way of Islam.
His mother invited guests to their house and one table was being setwhile the other was being cleared.
He pleaded his case, I too was always on this path.
I helped others. spread the word of Allah.
I performed my Salah. I fasted in the month of Ramadhan.
Whatever Allah ordered us to do, I did.
Whatever he ordered us not to do, I did not.’
He began to cry and think about how much he loved Allah.
He knew that whatever he had done in life would be less than what Allahdeserved and his only protector was Allah He was sweating like neverbefore and was shaking all over.
His eyes were fixed on the scale, waiting for the final decision.
At last, the decision was made.
The two angels with sheets of paper in their hands, turned to the crowd.
His legs felt like they were going to collapse.
He closed his eyes as they beganTo read the names of those people who were to enter Jahannam.
His name was read first.
He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn’t be,‘How could I go to Jahannam?
I served others all my life, I spread the word of Allah to others’.
His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat.
The two angels took him by the arms.
As his feet dragged, they went through the crowd and advanced toward theblazing flames of Jahannam.
He was yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help him.
He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had helped his father, his fasts, prayers, the Noble Qur’an that he read, he was asking if none of them would help him.
The Jahannam angels continued to drag him.
They had gotten closer to the Hellfire. He looked back and these were his last pleas.
Had not Rasulullah [SAW] said,‘How clean would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day, so too does the Salah performed five times cleanse someone of their sins’?He began yelling, ‘My prayers? My prayers? My prayers.?’
The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the abyss of Jahannam.
The flames of the fire were burning his face. He looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had nothing left in him.
One of the angels pushed him in. He found himself in the air and falling towards the flames. He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the arm and pulled him back.
He lifted his head and saw an old man with a long white beard.
He wiped some dust off himself and asked him, ‘Who are you?’
The old man replied, ‘I am your prayers’.
‘Why are you so late! I was almost in the Fire! You rescued me at the last minute before I fell in’.
The old man smiled and shook his head,
‘You always performed me at the last minute, did you forget?’ (And what of those who perform no prayers at all?)
At that instant, he blinked and lifted his head from Sajdah. He was in a sweat.
He listened to the voices coming from outside. He heard the Adhan for Salat-ul Isha.
He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu.
Pass this on to your friends and family. Maybe, you can help someone open their eyes Insha Allah.
Jazaakallah for reading this.
May Allah guide us all ameen
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There were only 15 minutes left before Salat-ul Isha.
He quickly made Wudhu and performed Salat-ul Maghrib.
While making Tasbih, he again remembered his grandmother and was embarrassed by how he had prayed.His grandmother prayed with such tranquillity and peace.
He began making Dua and went down to make Sajdah and stayed like that for a while.
He had been at work all day and was tired, so tired.
He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting.
He was sweating profusely.
He looked around.
It was very crowded.
Every direction he looked in was filled with people.
Some stood frozen looking around, some were running left and right and some were on their knees with their heads in their hands just waiting.
Pure fear and apprehension filled him as he realized where he was.
His heart was about to burst.
It was the Day of Judgment.
When he was alive, he had heard many things about the questioning on theDay of Judgment, but that seemed so long ago.
Could this be something his mind made up?
No, the wait and the fear were so great that he could not have imaginedthis.
The interrogation was still going on.
He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name hadbeen called.
No one could answer him.
All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two and madea passageway for him.
Two angels grabbed his arms and led him forward.
He walked with unknowing eyes through the crowd.
The angels brought him to the centre and left him there.
His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of hiseyes like a movie.
He opened his eyes but saw only another world.
The people were all helping others.
He saw his father running from one lecture to the other, spending hiswealth in the way of Islam.
His mother invited guests to their house and one table was being setwhile the other was being cleared.
He pleaded his case, I too was always on this path.
I helped others. spread the word of Allah.
I performed my Salah. I fasted in the month of Ramadhan.
Whatever Allah ordered us to do, I did.
Whatever he ordered us not to do, I did not.’
He began to cry and think about how much he loved Allah.
He knew that whatever he had done in life would be less than what Allahdeserved and his only protector was Allah He was sweating like neverbefore and was shaking all over.
His eyes were fixed on the scale, waiting for the final decision.
At last, the decision was made.
The two angels with sheets of paper in their hands, turned to the crowd.
His legs felt like they were going to collapse.
He closed his eyes as they beganTo read the names of those people who were to enter Jahannam.
His name was read first.
He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn’t be,‘How could I go to Jahannam?
I served others all my life, I spread the word of Allah to others’.
His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat.
The two angels took him by the arms.
As his feet dragged, they went through the crowd and advanced toward theblazing flames of Jahannam.
He was yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help him.
He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had helped his father, his fasts, prayers, the Noble Qur’an that he read, he was asking if none of them would help him.
The Jahannam angels continued to drag him.
They had gotten closer to the Hellfire. He looked back and these were his last pleas.
Had not Rasulullah [SAW] said,‘How clean would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day, so too does the Salah performed five times cleanse someone of their sins’?He began yelling, ‘My prayers? My prayers? My prayers.?’
The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the abyss of Jahannam.
The flames of the fire were burning his face. He looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had nothing left in him.
One of the angels pushed him in. He found himself in the air and falling towards the flames. He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the arm and pulled him back.
He lifted his head and saw an old man with a long white beard.
He wiped some dust off himself and asked him, ‘Who are you?’
The old man replied, ‘I am your prayers’.
‘Why are you so late! I was almost in the Fire! You rescued me at the last minute before I fell in’.
The old man smiled and shook his head,
‘You always performed me at the last minute, did you forget?’ (And what of those who perform no prayers at all?)
At that instant, he blinked and lifted his head from Sajdah. He was in a sweat.
He listened to the voices coming from outside. He heard the Adhan for Salat-ul Isha.
He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu.
Pass this on to your friends and family. Maybe, you can help someone open their eyes Insha Allah.
Jazaakallah for reading this.
May Allah guide us all ameen
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
tazkirah dan ingatan
Saya dapat maklumat ni sewaktu saya blog hopping pagi tadi..dan saya rasa betapa besarnya nikmat yang Allah telah kurniakan kepada saya hingga ke saat ini... Alhamdulillah, hanya rasa kesyukuran yang mampu saya panjatkan.
semoga kita semua mendapat manafaat dari tazkirah ini...
(terima kasih Kak Hidayah)
http://sekadarpendapat.blogspot.com/
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Email tazkirah..
Saya terima email ini, ia sangat menusuk hati saya, mungkin ada juga yang berminat membacanya..
Marilah sama-sama menghayati dan kita sama-sama menilai diri kita..
Apakah ada ujian menimpa, dan apakah kita pernah merasakan ujian itu terlalu berat yang tidak tertanggung bahu kita..
Apakah kita rasa seolah-olah dunia sudah berakhir dan hidup kita sudah tamat..
Saya baru mendapat berita yang sedih dan menyedihkan..
Ada kawan yang disahkan Cancer tahap 3..
Ada kawan yang suaminya disahkan Luekimia..
Ada kawan yang belajar di UK dipanggil balik kerana masalah confirmation..
Ada kawan yang terpaksa balik dari New Zealand kerana Supervisor missing in action, tiada pengganti..
Ada kawan yang bercerai kerana orang ketiga..
Ada kawan yang kematian suami semasa belajar di luar negara..
Jika kita rasa masalah dan ujian kita besar,
ada lagi orang yang lebih besar dari kita..
Namun begitu,
Jangan putus asa..
Kerana ..
Kita adalah insan bertuah..
Allah memberi peluang untuk kita kembali kepadaNya..
Mengadu dan berharap bantuanNya..
Ada orang yang semuanya mudah
Perjalanan hidupnya tidak ada cabaran
Itu rezeki mereka
Mungkin dia seronok kerana hidupnya berjalan lancar
Tapi kadang-kadang ada satu lagi tazkirah yang perlu kita ingat
Apa yang dipanggil istidraj. Satu pemberian yang Allah kasi tetapi bukan dengan kasih sayangnya
seumpama Qarun, Allah berikan harta melimpah ruah tetapi jauh dari Allah
seumpama Firaun, Allah berikan kuasa memerintah dunia tapi tidak mendapat kasih Ilahi
Istidraj itu sangat kita takuti
Semoga kita semua berada dalam rahmat dan kasih sayang Allah..
amin ...
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KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
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"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
*Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3
KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
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"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
*Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216
KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?
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"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
*Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286
RASA FRUST?
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"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yg beriman."
*Surah Al-Imran ayat 139
BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
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1) "Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
*Surah Al-Imran ayat 200
2) "Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
*Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45
APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?
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"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka..."
*Surah At-Taubah ayat 111
KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
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"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."
*Surah At-Taubah ayat 129
semoga kita semua mendapat manafaat dari tazkirah ini...
(terima kasih Kak Hidayah)
http://sekadarpendapat.blogspot.com/
************************************************
Email tazkirah..
Saya terima email ini, ia sangat menusuk hati saya, mungkin ada juga yang berminat membacanya..
Marilah sama-sama menghayati dan kita sama-sama menilai diri kita..
Apakah ada ujian menimpa, dan apakah kita pernah merasakan ujian itu terlalu berat yang tidak tertanggung bahu kita..
Apakah kita rasa seolah-olah dunia sudah berakhir dan hidup kita sudah tamat..
Saya baru mendapat berita yang sedih dan menyedihkan..
Ada kawan yang disahkan Cancer tahap 3..
Ada kawan yang suaminya disahkan Luekimia..
Ada kawan yang belajar di UK dipanggil balik kerana masalah confirmation..
Ada kawan yang terpaksa balik dari New Zealand kerana Supervisor missing in action, tiada pengganti..
Ada kawan yang bercerai kerana orang ketiga..
Ada kawan yang kematian suami semasa belajar di luar negara..
Jika kita rasa masalah dan ujian kita besar,
ada lagi orang yang lebih besar dari kita..
Namun begitu,
Jangan putus asa..
Kerana ..
Kita adalah insan bertuah..
Allah memberi peluang untuk kita kembali kepadaNya..
Mengadu dan berharap bantuanNya..
Ada orang yang semuanya mudah
Perjalanan hidupnya tidak ada cabaran
Itu rezeki mereka
Mungkin dia seronok kerana hidupnya berjalan lancar
Tapi kadang-kadang ada satu lagi tazkirah yang perlu kita ingat
Apa yang dipanggil istidraj. Satu pemberian yang Allah kasi tetapi bukan dengan kasih sayangnya
seumpama Qarun, Allah berikan harta melimpah ruah tetapi jauh dari Allah
seumpama Firaun, Allah berikan kuasa memerintah dunia tapi tidak mendapat kasih Ilahi
Istidraj itu sangat kita takuti
Semoga kita semua berada dalam rahmat dan kasih sayang Allah..
amin ...
_______________
KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
=================
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
*Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3
KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
=============================================
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
*Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216
KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?
=========================
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
*Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286
RASA FRUST?
==========
"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yg beriman."
*Surah Al-Imran ayat 139
BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
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1) "Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
*Surah Al-Imran ayat 200
2) "Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
*Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45
APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?
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"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka..."
*Surah At-Taubah ayat 111
KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
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"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."
*Surah At-Taubah ayat 129
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Menstrual cramp
It is that time of the month again! The beauty of being a lady... but it is not something that I am not looking forward to anyway. Why? Because that is the time of the month where I will spend mostly in bed and my mood is swinging. And more importantly.. I tend to have stomach cramps or sometimes the cramps even goes down to my legs. The pain is just unbearable.
I found a useful tip which I think is worth sharing. A heating pad is the best companion at this time of the month as it really helps to ease out the menstruation cramps (you can even use it for any pelvic pain, or a backache)? Here's how you can make a heating pad using things you probably have at home.
Difficulty: Easy
Time Required: 5 minutes
Here's How:
1. Fill the foot of a tube sock with rice. Do not use instant rice.
2. Tie the end of the tube sock into a knot.
3. Place the rice-filled sock in your microwave oven for 2 to 3 minutes on highpower. Time may vary by microwave, so check after one and a half minutes.
4. Remove the sock from the microwave and place on the area of your body where needed.
easy peasy....
it is even better than the hot water bottle.
I found a useful tip which I think is worth sharing. A heating pad is the best companion at this time of the month as it really helps to ease out the menstruation cramps (you can even use it for any pelvic pain, or a backache)? Here's how you can make a heating pad using things you probably have at home.
Difficulty: Easy
Time Required: 5 minutes
Here's How:
1. Fill the foot of a tube sock with rice. Do not use instant rice.
2. Tie the end of the tube sock into a knot.
3. Place the rice-filled sock in your microwave oven for 2 to 3 minutes on highpower. Time may vary by microwave, so check after one and a half minutes.
4. Remove the sock from the microwave and place on the area of your body where needed.
easy peasy....
it is even better than the hot water bottle.
Friday, September 3, 2010
BINGO
i-just-dun-wanna-be-seen!!!there is a strange feeling inside me. and maybe this is just part of the PHD syndrome. There are a few people that I just dont want to meet and (surprisingly) they include my SVs. No... no..no.. I have done anything wrong nor committed any major offences. Neither that I have ballooned myself since the last meeting. Hmmmm...........but my research is progressing too slow and BINGO!!! Gotcha. and that explains everything.
Monday, August 2, 2010
IT IS AUGUST!
Today is the 2nd day of August, and it means that I am in my 18th month of my PHD research. Don't ask me about my progress since that is the last thing that I want to hear now. Whatever it is.. the past is behind and let us see what does the future hold for us. I am leaving it to Allah the Almighty, as He has laid the best plans for me. Oh Allah, please ease this journey. Ameen.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Back to life, Back to reality
I am back in Brisbane; was away for about 2 months for a (supposedly) preliminary data collection in Malaysia. I only spent about a week on my research and the rest was like a break cum holiday. I managed to catch up on things with my loved ones- family, friends and colleagues and really treasure every moment spent especially with my beloved hubby. Priceless. Well, at least I was able to finish a 2-page article proposal for a well known journal in the field that I am researching (I want to enjoy the holiday with less guilt).
It was hard to be separated again with my other half. I was in tears almost all the way from Shah Alam to Brisbane. As he has put it~intermittent shower in the morning, later drizzling and ended up with cats and dogs and a heavy storm. I know it was hard for him as well but this is the price that we need to pay. Sacrifice- that's the word! And I am recovering-slowly. Picking up my momentum. May Allah ease this journey and grant me (and him)strength! Ameen.
It was hard to be separated again with my other half. I was in tears almost all the way from Shah Alam to Brisbane. As he has put it~intermittent shower in the morning, later drizzling and ended up with cats and dogs and a heavy storm. I know it was hard for him as well but this is the price that we need to pay. Sacrifice- that's the word! And I am recovering-slowly. Picking up my momentum. May Allah ease this journey and grant me (and him)strength! Ameen.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Hikmah yang tersembunyi
Pengalaman kira-kira setahun berada di luar negara, menjadi seorang pelajar PHD sememangnya sungguh berharga. Prosesnya tidak mudah. Onak dan duri perlu ditempuh. Walaubagaimanapun, setelah setahun berlalu, tidaklah terlalu sukar untuk diharungi.
Bila kita berada diluar negara, cabarannya berbeza khususnya untuk pelajar-pelajar pasca siswazah (postgrad) yang rata-ratanya telah berkeluarga dan beranak pinak. Kekangan kewangan, masa dan gaya hidup yang berbeza menuntut pengorbanan. Dulu semasa saya menjadi pelajar undergrad di Cardiff, pengalaman sungguh berbeza. Maklumlah masa tu saya masih muda dan single, jadi masalah yang datang biasanya kecil dan mudah diatasi.
Tapi apa yang saya rasakan buat PHD didalam negara juga punya cabaran yang sangat besar, khususnya dalam membahagi-bagikan masa antara komitmen keluarga dan PHD research itu sendiri. Urusan keluarga sendiri dan keluarga sebelah mertua adalah sebahagian daripada perkara yang tidak dapat dielakan. Daripada kenduri kesyukuran, kenduri arwah, birthday party, kenduri kahwin dan sebagainya- semua perlu dihadiri. Itu belum lagi dengan proses mengumpul maklumat untuk kajian kes. Maklum sajalah- rasanya ramai yang sedar dan sinonim dengan tahap kerahsiaan maklumat yang ada. Semuanya "confidential".
Ringkasnya, setiap individu punya cabaran yang tersendiri. Destinasinya sama - segulung ijazah PHD, tapi laluannya berbeza. Semuanya perlukan pengorbanan yang mungkin tidak terjangkau fikiran semasa. Kepada Allah kita berserah dan panjatkan doa. Mudah-mudahan ada ganjaran yang menanti, jika tidak disini, disana pasti! InsyaAllah.
Bila kita berada diluar negara, cabarannya berbeza khususnya untuk pelajar-pelajar pasca siswazah (postgrad) yang rata-ratanya telah berkeluarga dan beranak pinak. Kekangan kewangan, masa dan gaya hidup yang berbeza menuntut pengorbanan. Dulu semasa saya menjadi pelajar undergrad di Cardiff, pengalaman sungguh berbeza. Maklumlah masa tu saya masih muda dan single, jadi masalah yang datang biasanya kecil dan mudah diatasi.
Tapi apa yang saya rasakan buat PHD didalam negara juga punya cabaran yang sangat besar, khususnya dalam membahagi-bagikan masa antara komitmen keluarga dan PHD research itu sendiri. Urusan keluarga sendiri dan keluarga sebelah mertua adalah sebahagian daripada perkara yang tidak dapat dielakan. Daripada kenduri kesyukuran, kenduri arwah, birthday party, kenduri kahwin dan sebagainya- semua perlu dihadiri. Itu belum lagi dengan proses mengumpul maklumat untuk kajian kes. Maklum sajalah- rasanya ramai yang sedar dan sinonim dengan tahap kerahsiaan maklumat yang ada. Semuanya "confidential".
Ringkasnya, setiap individu punya cabaran yang tersendiri. Destinasinya sama - segulung ijazah PHD, tapi laluannya berbeza. Semuanya perlukan pengorbanan yang mungkin tidak terjangkau fikiran semasa. Kepada Allah kita berserah dan panjatkan doa. Mudah-mudahan ada ganjaran yang menanti, jika tidak disini, disana pasti! InsyaAllah.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Aku mahu pulang
Perasaan hari ini bercampur baur. Terlalu gembira kerana saya akan pulang ke Mesia kepangkuan suami dan keluarga tercinta. Teruja untuk kembali ke tanahair dan menghirup udara Malaysia yang telah hampir setahun ditinggalkan. Tapi hati berbelah bagi memandangkan ada lagi kerja-kerja PHD yang masih belum selesai dan memerlukan perhatian. Supervisor juga masih menanti pembetulan kepada dokumen confirmation yang telah dibentangkan kepada panel kira-kira 2 minggu yang lalu. Walaupun mungkin pembetulan tersebut mengambil masa tidak lama, tetapi hati dan perasaan saya tidak boleh tertumpu pada kerja-kerja PHD semenjak hari pembentangan tersebut. Kali ini saya akan pulang dengan menggalas bebanan di bahu, kerana saya juga akan membuat kerja-kerja awal pengumpulan maklumat berkaitan dengan kajian PHD ini.
Setiap waktu saya berdoa, semoga Allah memudahkan urusan saya dan memandu saya dalam membuat apa jua keputusan. Saya serahkan kepadaNya, segala-galanya. Semua adalah ketentuanNya. Kita manusia hanya boleh merancang, tapi Dia yang menentukan segala-galanya.
Setiap waktu saya berdoa, semoga Allah memudahkan urusan saya dan memandu saya dalam membuat apa jua keputusan. Saya serahkan kepadaNya, segala-galanya. Semua adalah ketentuanNya. Kita manusia hanya boleh merancang, tapi Dia yang menentukan segala-galanya.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone
This is one of my all time favourite song! Enjoy.
I am always here for you everyone my dear family and friends!!!.
Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah, the Almighty!!
Salam everyone! It's been a while since my last jottings. I may have a list of lame excuses - but I was truly a busy lady for the past couple of months. It was all because of my confirmaton of candidature (COC) which was due on the month 12 of my PHD candidature.
My COC seminar was held on the 5/5/2010. And before that, I need to submit my document to the faculty and obviously series of meetings with my beloved supervisors! And making the situation even worse, I fall sick just before the seminar itself. I was down with a high fever, running nose, thumping headache, annoying coughs, sorethroat and a very heavy and painful period. And those have made me to stay in bed, doing nothing (apart form worrying about the COC itself) for at least 3 solid days.
Alhamdulillah, the presentation went well. Thanks to Allah and I owe my husband and my parents much for this success as well. I've been ringing them at almost every hour before the presentation. I asked them to pray for me and they did performed solat hajat for me too. My friends were also very supportive. With their continuous emotional support and of course with Allah's will, I have managed to come this far.
And the journey has just begun. It will be another 2 years of undulating journey and bumpy rides. I remember they always say- it will be a bigger mountain afer the coc. And I will need to climb again, slowly and steadily.
In short, Alhamdulillah!
My COC seminar was held on the 5/5/2010. And before that, I need to submit my document to the faculty and obviously series of meetings with my beloved supervisors! And making the situation even worse, I fall sick just before the seminar itself. I was down with a high fever, running nose, thumping headache, annoying coughs, sorethroat and a very heavy and painful period. And those have made me to stay in bed, doing nothing (apart form worrying about the COC itself) for at least 3 solid days.
Alhamdulillah, the presentation went well. Thanks to Allah and I owe my husband and my parents much for this success as well. I've been ringing them at almost every hour before the presentation. I asked them to pray for me and they did performed solat hajat for me too. My friends were also very supportive. With their continuous emotional support and of course with Allah's will, I have managed to come this far.
And the journey has just begun. It will be another 2 years of undulating journey and bumpy rides. I remember they always say- it will be a bigger mountain afer the coc. And I will need to climb again, slowly and steadily.
In short, Alhamdulillah!
Friday, March 26, 2010
It's been a year!
Dear All,
It's been a year now since I enrolled myself as a research student at QUT. Time really flies. 12 months of ups and downs, the joy and laughter, the sorrows and tears and I must say that the whole journey is like a real roller coaster ride.
What have I achieved so far? Hmmm... not much, but hey-look at the followings- which otherwise may not be attained if I don't enroll as a PHD student here at QUT; (aren't they considered as achievements too)?
I have produced a book chapter - I am so proud of myself for this
My article has been published
My abstract(s) has been accepted to an international conference(s)
I have my "adik beradik sepusat sepusing" - and brizzy kiddos whom I adore so much~ farhana, aqil, mardiah, najmi, zahim, izwah, aiman, mia, alya, ammar, hanna, hamzah
I make new friends from all over the globe - Ausies, Sri Lankan, Singaporean, Turkish, Chinese, Iranian, Indian, Brazilian
I feel much closer to my husband and my family- guess this is what they called as "absence makes the hearts grow fonder"
I have read (printed and downloaded-more likely) tonnes and tonnes of journal papers and articles
I am an avid public transport user - I am more environmentally conscious now, I am sad when they almost cut down a big tree behind my flat.
I have polished my cooking skills- I baked my own cakes and cookies, and the MYRESEPI url is a must visit daily
I discover new hobbies - blog hopping, internet surfing is my daily routine; i did some online shopping too..hehe
I am becoming a more tech savvy person- i-phone, wii, facebooking, wifi, lappy, blue rays <-- they are my best buddies now
I am polishing my writing skills, and the vocabs too
I read Quran almost everyday - and thanks to the digital Quran from i-tunes
And more importantly, I feel much closer to Allah the Almighty. And I guess - the solitude has made me a stronger person ever, internally. I am still an old me, but I feel much stronger inside. Oh Allah - I am so grateful for this.
Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan untukmu dadamu?,
Dan Kami telah menghilangkan dari padamu bebanmu,
yang memberatkan punggungmu?
Dan Kami tinggikan bagimu sebutan (nama)mu.
Karena sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan,
sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.
Maka apabila kamu telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), kerjakanlah dengan sungguh-sungguh (urusan) yang lain,dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah hendaknya kamu berharap.
Maka nikmat Tuhan kamu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Blog Hopping
I discover a new hobby. Blog hopping. And it is so addictive as I would spend hours and hours in a day just hopping from one blog to another. What I like most about this new hobby is that the blogs offer me a different environment, and there are occasions when I feel like I am in a different world altogether. Probably I can easily connect myself to the writing as most of these blogers are just ordinary people and leading an ordinary life as well. From fashion to shopping, even some recipes and cooking tips...religious reminder, life experience, and list goes on and on.
I found a piece of writing in one blog which I frequently visit; and I find this one is soooo uplifting; and I want to share with all of you.
{i took it from http://muhdkamil.net/kehidupan/}
Apakah prof tidak mempunyai sebarang cubaan, dugaan atau halangan?,” tanya seorang pelayar blog ini sambil menitiskan air mata. “Saya melihat hidup prof kelihatan senang seolah-olah tiada langsung yang menyusahkan. Saya ingin hampir dengan Allah tetapi saya rasa saya semakin jauh”.
Baiklah. Biar saya nyatakan, hidup saya sering diwarnai dengan pelbagai dugaan dan cabaran. Hampir sepanjang masa. Cuma saya fikir, Allah menguji kita kerana Dia tahu yang kita mampu bertahan dan boleh menghadapinya. Dalam kebanyakan kes, kesabaran dan penyerahan diri kepada Dia yang Maha Berkuasa mampu menghilangkan segala keresahan, gundah-gulana dan kerisauan.
Lihatlah senarai cabaran yang perlu kita hadapi, misalnya soal perkahwinan, hidup berumahtangga, anak-anak, kerjaya, kaum keluarga, sahabat-handai, rakan sekerja, kewangan …. opps, ia pastinya tidak bernoktah hinggalah ketika kita mengucapkan “Tiada Tuhan yang di sembah melainkan Allah”, meninggalkan kehidupan dunia, menghadapi alam kubur dan kekal di syurga firdaus.
Dugaan atau cabaran akan berakhir dengan kenikmatan. Lihatlah dengan mata hati. Misalnya, jika kita difitnah, percayalah yang Allah sudah berjanji, kebenaran akhirnya akan muncul. Manusia akan bertambah hampir kepadaNya dengan memohon perlindungan, memohon keampunan dan merayu serta merintah pada setiap 1/3 hujung malam yang tersisa. Bangun malam dan “berkata-kata” dengan Allah di kesunyian malam itu pun sudah merupakan satu nikmat yang tidak terhingga.
Soalnya, manusia sering bersikap hipokrit dengan Allah. Ingat ketika susah, menjauhi ketika senang! Kita melihat manusia lebih mudah beramal ibadat kerana bos berbanding kerana cintakan Pencipta. Kita merasai kepentingan dunia jauh melebihi kepentingan hidup selepas kematian.
Hakikatnya, itulah cabaran dan dugaan saya yang sebenar. Ia bukan soal difitnah, bukan berhadapan dengan mereka yang hasad dengki atau letih memikirkan kerenah mereka yang hanya pandai mengkritik semata-mata.
Jadi, secara perlahan-lahan “kepercayaan dan keyakinan” kepada Dia harus benar-benar 100%. Ia kelihatan sukar namun itulah yang perlu dilakukan. Saya berdoa agar Allah memberi perlindungan, kerahmatan dan kasih-sayangNya kepada saya dan keluarga serta pembaca blog ini.
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**Amalkan surah Ash-Sharh(94), Alamnasyrah.....
"Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. (Sekali lagi ditegaskan):bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan." ~ ini janji Allah.
I found a piece of writing in one blog which I frequently visit; and I find this one is soooo uplifting; and I want to share with all of you.
{i took it from http://muhdkamil.net/kehidupan/}
Apakah prof tidak mempunyai sebarang cubaan, dugaan atau halangan?,” tanya seorang pelayar blog ini sambil menitiskan air mata. “Saya melihat hidup prof kelihatan senang seolah-olah tiada langsung yang menyusahkan. Saya ingin hampir dengan Allah tetapi saya rasa saya semakin jauh”.
Baiklah. Biar saya nyatakan, hidup saya sering diwarnai dengan pelbagai dugaan dan cabaran. Hampir sepanjang masa. Cuma saya fikir, Allah menguji kita kerana Dia tahu yang kita mampu bertahan dan boleh menghadapinya. Dalam kebanyakan kes, kesabaran dan penyerahan diri kepada Dia yang Maha Berkuasa mampu menghilangkan segala keresahan, gundah-gulana dan kerisauan.
Lihatlah senarai cabaran yang perlu kita hadapi, misalnya soal perkahwinan, hidup berumahtangga, anak-anak, kerjaya, kaum keluarga, sahabat-handai, rakan sekerja, kewangan …. opps, ia pastinya tidak bernoktah hinggalah ketika kita mengucapkan “Tiada Tuhan yang di sembah melainkan Allah”, meninggalkan kehidupan dunia, menghadapi alam kubur dan kekal di syurga firdaus.
Dugaan atau cabaran akan berakhir dengan kenikmatan. Lihatlah dengan mata hati. Misalnya, jika kita difitnah, percayalah yang Allah sudah berjanji, kebenaran akhirnya akan muncul. Manusia akan bertambah hampir kepadaNya dengan memohon perlindungan, memohon keampunan dan merayu serta merintah pada setiap 1/3 hujung malam yang tersisa. Bangun malam dan “berkata-kata” dengan Allah di kesunyian malam itu pun sudah merupakan satu nikmat yang tidak terhingga.
Soalnya, manusia sering bersikap hipokrit dengan Allah. Ingat ketika susah, menjauhi ketika senang! Kita melihat manusia lebih mudah beramal ibadat kerana bos berbanding kerana cintakan Pencipta. Kita merasai kepentingan dunia jauh melebihi kepentingan hidup selepas kematian.
Hakikatnya, itulah cabaran dan dugaan saya yang sebenar. Ia bukan soal difitnah, bukan berhadapan dengan mereka yang hasad dengki atau letih memikirkan kerenah mereka yang hanya pandai mengkritik semata-mata.
Jadi, secara perlahan-lahan “kepercayaan dan keyakinan” kepada Dia harus benar-benar 100%. Ia kelihatan sukar namun itulah yang perlu dilakukan. Saya berdoa agar Allah memberi perlindungan, kerahmatan dan kasih-sayangNya kepada saya dan keluarga serta pembaca blog ini.
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**Amalkan surah Ash-Sharh(94), Alamnasyrah.....
"Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. (Sekali lagi ditegaskan):bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan." ~ ini janji Allah.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Writing a PHD thesis
Writing a PHD thesis.
I just want to share with all of you about the tips on writing a PHD thesis. I maybe far from the the actual "stage of writing thesis", but I believe it is worth to ponder the recommendations.
p/s - thanks to Rima for a link from her FB.
http://www.timeshighereducation.co.uk/story.asp?sectioncode=26&storycode=410208&c=1
I just want to share with all of you about the tips on writing a PHD thesis. I maybe far from the the actual "stage of writing thesis", but I believe it is worth to ponder the recommendations.
p/s - thanks to Rima for a link from her FB.
http://www.timeshighereducation.co.uk/story.asp?sectioncode=26&storycode=410208&c=1
Saturday, January 30, 2010
PHD- familiar but distant
A PHD friend always reminds me that PHD is a lonely journey and I couldn't agree more about it. I went to see my SV yesterday and for a record- it was the first time I requested for a meeting as normally it was him who would call for one.
We had a lengthy discussion on certain issues related to my research - both about the process and the content. I realised his peculiar look when I raised certain issues, which he thinks should have been resolved earlier. I remember he said
"it's been a year and I thought they are all in a perfect order by now" - gosh!!!
It was about the research design! How am I supposed to conduct the research in a logical manner with some theoretical and academically sound techniques. Arrrgghhhh.. my confirmation is nearing- just around the corner and I am far from ready. Though things look familiar to me - yet they are so distant - and that puts me in a vague mode!!
Oh Allah- i turn to YOU. As always.
We had a lengthy discussion on certain issues related to my research - both about the process and the content. I realised his peculiar look when I raised certain issues, which he thinks should have been resolved earlier. I remember he said
"it's been a year and I thought they are all in a perfect order by now" - gosh!!!
It was about the research design! How am I supposed to conduct the research in a logical manner with some theoretical and academically sound techniques. Arrrgghhhh.. my confirmation is nearing- just around the corner and I am far from ready. Though things look familiar to me - yet they are so distant - and that puts me in a vague mode!!
Oh Allah- i turn to YOU. As always.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
A piece of advice
I wish to share the following piece of advice from a friend. She wrote to me a couple of days ago when I told her that I was down with my research. And I am so blessed to have her as my friend. My true friend. A friend in need is a friend indeed.
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The progress of one's PHD depends a lot on oneself. You could slooow down when you feel too stressful; you could up the tempo when you feel your research needs a push. In short, you decide the rhythm of your PHD - just you & your research - within the stipulated 3-4 years. simple life=) whereas, working as a lecturer, you are bogged down with - students, lectures, tutorials, quizzes, exam questions, vetting, marking tons of scripts, evaluate presentations etc - these have their own deadlines.
To add to these as a lecturer, we need secure grants, start our research lab, train postgrads (with so many ragam & kerenah), prepare grant reports, endless meetings, committee conference work, grant presentations, guide postdocs, politicking, write papers and only then finally, have the time to update oneself with one's research. I miss going to the lab - buat labwork - but i don't have the time to continuously be in the lab. nowadays, i'm more like an armchair scientist... so that's why i'm looking forward to my sabbatical - it's an opportunity to be free again and focus on just research;-) that said, do enjoy your phd life. despite some 'downs', I remember lots of the 'ups' time - that it's one of the best years in my life, and may not be likely to happen again;-)
A PhD is akin to a journey of searching for one's soul, one's voice in the midst of so many voices around us. At some points in the journey, one needs to move two steps backwards, before one could take a step forward. I've backtracked my work so many times - that at one time, I could do some reactions without looking at my lab book ie similar like you cooking the yummy asam pedas without a cook book!;-)
FYI, during my PhD, my first year results were not strong enough to turn into a convincing story - so it became a middle chapter just to beef up my thesis. It's my work in the second and third years that turned out to be my core story. Some people are somewhat quite lucky that PhD was a breezy 2.5 years etc. But honestly, I thoroughly enjoyed my time during my PhD - made more enjoyable and fun with good companies and support from friends, supervisors and family=)
It's normal to feel tak bersemangat when you are in research. if you feel that way, try to talk to your hubby and families back home; talk to your office mates; take a walk; read a book that would move/improve your spirits or anything to rejuvenate your spirits. sometimes, remembering why you are here would work. i knew getting a phd is like a one-way street - i couldn't afford to go back without one coz we have all put in all hopes, efforts and dreams in this phd. so i carried on plodding everday, lama-lama benda yang susah jadi lebih senang.
banyaklah juga berdoa - it's the time i felt closest to Allah too=)
hope i haven't rambled too much;-)
and hope this would help bring back the 'fighting' spirit in you to carry on getting with PhD. InsyaAllah!
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The progress of one's PHD depends a lot on oneself. You could slooow down when you feel too stressful; you could up the tempo when you feel your research needs a push. In short, you decide the rhythm of your PHD - just you & your research - within the stipulated 3-4 years. simple life=) whereas, working as a lecturer, you are bogged down with - students, lectures, tutorials, quizzes, exam questions, vetting, marking tons of scripts, evaluate presentations etc - these have their own deadlines.
To add to these as a lecturer, we need secure grants, start our research lab, train postgrads (with so many ragam & kerenah), prepare grant reports, endless meetings, committee conference work, grant presentations, guide postdocs, politicking, write papers and only then finally, have the time to update oneself with one's research. I miss going to the lab - buat labwork - but i don't have the time to continuously be in the lab. nowadays, i'm more like an armchair scientist... so that's why i'm looking forward to my sabbatical - it's an opportunity to be free again and focus on just research;-) that said, do enjoy your phd life. despite some 'downs', I remember lots of the 'ups' time - that it's one of the best years in my life, and may not be likely to happen again;-)
A PhD is akin to a journey of searching for one's soul, one's voice in the midst of so many voices around us. At some points in the journey, one needs to move two steps backwards, before one could take a step forward. I've backtracked my work so many times - that at one time, I could do some reactions without looking at my lab book ie similar like you cooking the yummy asam pedas without a cook book!;-)
FYI, during my PhD, my first year results were not strong enough to turn into a convincing story - so it became a middle chapter just to beef up my thesis. It's my work in the second and third years that turned out to be my core story. Some people are somewhat quite lucky that PhD was a breezy 2.5 years etc. But honestly, I thoroughly enjoyed my time during my PhD - made more enjoyable and fun with good companies and support from friends, supervisors and family=)
It's normal to feel tak bersemangat when you are in research. if you feel that way, try to talk to your hubby and families back home; talk to your office mates; take a walk; read a book that would move/improve your spirits or anything to rejuvenate your spirits. sometimes, remembering why you are here would work. i knew getting a phd is like a one-way street - i couldn't afford to go back without one coz we have all put in all hopes, efforts and dreams in this phd. so i carried on plodding everday, lama-lama benda yang susah jadi lebih senang.
banyaklah juga berdoa - it's the time i felt closest to Allah too=)
hope i haven't rambled too much;-)
and hope this would help bring back the 'fighting' spirit in you to carry on getting with PhD. InsyaAllah!
Inspiring friends
Whenever I am worried about my PHD research, I will always look at the list of names which I put on my board to inspire me. They are my close friends who have completed (are completing)the PHD journey.
PM Dr Hajah Dasimah
PM Dr Hajah Hafazah
PM Dr Fatimah
PM Dr Hazlina
PM Dr Rosmin
PM Dr Jamalunlaili
Dr Mariana
Dr Syahriah
Dr Zaini
Dr Reza
(Dr)Puziah
(Dr)Siti Mazwin
(Dr)Zamreen
(Dr)Yusfida
(Dr)Anis Sazira
(Dr Ani Saifuza
(Dr)Maimon
(Dr)Izzamir
(Dr)Salbiah
(Dr)Alamah
(Dr)Maizura
(Dr)Hafiszah
(Dr)Norbaya
(Dr)Wan Rabiah
(Dr)Suharto
(Dr)Kushairi
(Dr)Hasniyati
(Dr)Zulhabri
(Dr)Yuhanis
(Dr)Kartina
(Dr)Oliver
(Dr)Noraliani
(Dr)Nor Arbina
(Dr)Zaiton
(Dr)Juhazren
(Dr)Norashikin
(Dr)Gee
and the list goes on and on....(an phewwww!! what an exhaustive list) - they are not listed according to any order.
So Muna - it as as simple as - if they can do it, so can you!!!!!
PM Dr Hajah Dasimah
PM Dr Hajah Hafazah
PM Dr Fatimah
PM Dr Hazlina
PM Dr Rosmin
PM Dr Jamalunlaili
Dr Mariana
Dr Syahriah
Dr Zaini
Dr Reza
(Dr)Puziah
(Dr)Siti Mazwin
(Dr)Zamreen
(Dr)Yusfida
(Dr)Anis Sazira
(Dr Ani Saifuza
(Dr)Maimon
(Dr)Izzamir
(Dr)Salbiah
(Dr)Alamah
(Dr)Maizura
(Dr)Hafiszah
(Dr)Norbaya
(Dr)Wan Rabiah
(Dr)Suharto
(Dr)Kushairi
(Dr)Hasniyati
(Dr)Zulhabri
(Dr)Yuhanis
(Dr)Kartina
(Dr)Oliver
(Dr)Noraliani
(Dr)Nor Arbina
(Dr)Zaiton
(Dr)Juhazren
(Dr)Norashikin
(Dr)Gee
and the list goes on and on....(an phewwww!! what an exhaustive list) - they are not listed according to any order.
So Muna - it as as simple as - if they can do it, so can you!!!!!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Uplifting Song
Uplifting song.
I find this song is really uplifting especially at times when my fighting spirit is low. So, enjoy everyone!!!
The Climb lyrics
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
I find this song is really uplifting especially at times when my fighting spirit is low. So, enjoy everyone!!!
The Climb lyrics
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
Maal Hijrah 1431 and New Year 2010
New year - old me!
It has been a while since my last jottings. I've been a bit busy with my research (or at least making myself looks busy). My supervisor is away for his year end break until middle of January. Too bad, he has set some deadlines for me - to make sure that I am always in the gear. [i think he knows me well enough by now- procastination is my middle name].
My confirmation is due in less than 3 months from now. And I am yet to have a clear mind on the real direction of my research especially on the researh design and the (actual) method. The theoretical part is almost there, and so is the literature review. The conceptual framework to set the foundation of this research may need a bit of polishing though.
This is an exploratory research, or as my supervisor puts it- a problem based research. Hence, he always reminds me that I don't probably need to really emphasize on the the research philosophies in my writing (anyway I don't fully agree to him about this). And I may need to convince him about this.
It seems that my supervisor is more confident than me. He knows that I am capable to conduct and complete this research. He is very confident and I can always recall his words "I have faith in you" - but - probably due to my low self esteem, I am in doubt.
And maybe it is hightime for me to find solutions to boost my self esteem. And probably the new year 2010/1431 is the perfect time for me to set my new resolutions. May Allah ease this lonely journey! Ameen.
It has been a while since my last jottings. I've been a bit busy with my research (or at least making myself looks busy). My supervisor is away for his year end break until middle of January. Too bad, he has set some deadlines for me - to make sure that I am always in the gear. [i think he knows me well enough by now- procastination is my middle name].
My confirmation is due in less than 3 months from now. And I am yet to have a clear mind on the real direction of my research especially on the researh design and the (actual) method. The theoretical part is almost there, and so is the literature review. The conceptual framework to set the foundation of this research may need a bit of polishing though.
This is an exploratory research, or as my supervisor puts it- a problem based research. Hence, he always reminds me that I don't probably need to really emphasize on the the research philosophies in my writing (anyway I don't fully agree to him about this). And I may need to convince him about this.
It seems that my supervisor is more confident than me. He knows that I am capable to conduct and complete this research. He is very confident and I can always recall his words "I have faith in you" - but - probably due to my low self esteem, I am in doubt.
And maybe it is hightime for me to find solutions to boost my self esteem. And probably the new year 2010/1431 is the perfect time for me to set my new resolutions. May Allah ease this lonely journey! Ameen.
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